Delving Deep Into Who I Am

The Lord did some major spiritual surgery in my life this past year and a half. I took some time to delve deep into who I’ve believed I was for most of my life. As I looked at myself, I realized there were beliefs and mindsets that have held me back from understanding my full identity in Christ. Over the last several months it took a wrecking ball to what I had built into my life. I’m not going to lie and say what I’ve unearthed has been easy to deal with. As a matter of fact, the deep things were hard to get to and get through. But, y’all, the Lord has been so gracious through this journey and I couldn’t be more grateful for the freedom and healing he’s given me.

The older I get the more I realize how much I didn’t know and thought I did. The more I’ve realized how desperately I need Jesus. I didn’t understand how I had built into my life beliefs that only held me back. Beliefs that I allowed to define me. One of my biggest beliefs was that I had to work for and earn God’s love. Oh I know, I’ve preached many times that’s not the case but, truthfully, I agreed with that lie. The belief that I had to perform in order to please the Lord stemmed from deep roots in my family. It came from words spoken over me for years that I came into agreement with and decided were truth. I chose to believe words that weren’t who I truly was. I identified with them and gave them ground in my life.

So, why am I telling you this?

Well, it’s because there are too many of you reading this who have bought into the same lies that have been spoken to and about you. It’s time to allow the Lord to unearth those lies. Pull out of you the words you’ve held onto. It’s time you allow him to build and plant his kingdom deeply into who you are and start walking as a healed, free, strong and life-giving spirit-filled believer. It’s time to take back the ground we’ve given away and start resting in the truth of who Jesus is in us.